I'll Come Back When I Know...

"Serendipity. Look for something, find something else, and realise that what

you've found is more suited to your needs than

what you thought you were looking for" ~ Lawrence Block

"Can once in a lifetime happen twice?

When Jonathan and Sara meet for the first time, there's a definite attraction between the two of them, but they're both attached. Sara is a big believer in "meant to be", and when she gives Jonathan her phone number only to have the wind blow the number from his hand, she sees this as a sign that the two of them are not meant to be together - at least not right now.

Years pass, and now Jonathan (John Cusack) is engaged to marry someone else. He loves his fiancee, but suddenly he's thinking a lot about Sara. Across the country, Sara (Kate Beckinsale) has also just gotten engaged, but she's starting to wonder about Jonathan. They're both starting to wonder what might have been.

The two launch a search to find one another, armed with very little information about the other - they don't even know each other's last name, let alone an address or phone number. The plot twists as the two try to find one another in New York City, seemingly against all odds, although they're closer than either of them knows. Their paths ALMOST cross several times, but not quite. Will they ever find each other again? Or will it be too late?"

That's a synopsis of Serendipity.

I like it because it has my favourite Jon Cusack, ice skating rink (once, i had a crush on an 8-year old blond while he's teaching me how to skate) and the word "serendipity" (well, since I am a sign believer).

As you can see, I haven't been writing a lot since early this month - well, for some valid reasons like 'being bugged down' - but most of the time, my mind was caught in a doldrum that even the most interesting socio-politico issues don't seem to de-frizz my tangled mind. Too bad, i'm tad too self-centric, presently.

"Love me when i least deserve it, because that's when i really need it"

~ Swedish Proverb

My life, at its most 'interesting', is indeed a stand-up comedy I admitted here before. Perhaps, i'm one selfish, greedy lot - i have one but i want that one. Maybe, i'm plain stupid to 'mengenal manikam dan jauhari' - i am a 'Queen' to one yet i rather be a 'pauper' to another. Get my drift? ;>

"There is a sacredness in tears. They are not the mark of weakness, but of power.

They speak more eloquently than ten thousand tongues. They are messengers of

overwhelming griefs...and unspeakable love"

~ Washington Irving

Before 'people' turns into 'present' in my writing, i shall retreat into my 'cove' (oh, by the way, we must make a point to watch "The Cove" if you love watching environmental documentary, horror and spy thriller movie (like "The Bourne Identity")).

I shall immerse myself in 'foreign stuffs, culture and people' so in return i'd know my real self. I'll come back because i love rantings, musings and cursing (ops ;P) and i love reading those blogs i follow. But above all, i'll come back when i know...and our Ibu Pertiwi has to have more women's say from now on (I don't trust Kak Jat, Kak Yen Yen and those ladies in pink).

To those kind souls (you know who you are), please take good care of yourselves, ok? My prayers and thoughts are with you in everything you do, ok? And when you ate your buah kurma (dates), saw any cats or dogs, sip your coffee or caught in the rain, think of me, ok? - those are all my favourite things :)

To those brave souls (i know who you are), keep on writing for this Ibu Pertiwi needs so much of your wisdoms to enlighten its people. You are all truly my heroes! Really!

To those who were brought here by chance when you started searching for "Autism", i know i haven't been writing much about it but i know we all know that the best medicine for any soul who is unable to express his feelings (through effective communication) is one big hug and simple whispers of "I Love You". Come to think of it, apart from autistic people who are born with this developmental challenge, there are indeed many normal people out there who are incapable of expressing their emotions. When was the last time you hug someone?

Cheerio....Hasta La Vista baby....

Sia-sia Merdeka Ini

Sia-sia hilang nyawa

Atuk moyang kita - Pejuang bangsa

Separuh abad merdeka

Anak bangsa semakin sengsara

Sia-sia mereka bertikam lidah, berhujah

Untuk bawa pulang khabar merdeka

Di kala usia mencecah 52

Akal haiwan nafsu syaitan kini bermaharajalela

Sia-sia hidup kita

Disogok mimpi dusta, disorong bantal nista

Kita lalai akan tanggungjawab

Kita lupa akan kemanusiaan

Kita mamai dengan kebendaan

Kita hina akan kebenaran

Malaysia - sia-sia merdeka ini

p.s. Thank you to Ella-Mae from The Dandelions for sharing this moving clip. Instead of blaming others, i point the finger at myself. Where was i all these while that i allow this beautiful country of us turned into such Police State? Was i trapped in the state of ignorance, stupidity and cowardice act? Weren't my ancestors the brave men and women who fought for Her indepedence - they lost almost everything but their dignity? Why am i like this?

p.s.s. Someone told me that i write like an angry young (seriously i am not) woman. Well, now you know why i am this angry, after watching that clip. I don't ask for the 'stars', the 'moon' and the 'sun'. All i asked for is compassion to all. To be just is to be humane enough. That's all...

Say NO to shameless men

Everytime an opposition representative is being probed by MACC, it is a general rule of thumb that he would quit his party, continue serving as an independent representative and walla - he would be cleared from the said probe. I wonder what is the price of integrity and trust to turn one into a ‘traitor’ of his own people.

“Whenever a man has cast a longing eye on offices, a rottenness begins in his conduct” ~ Thomas Jefferson

In the case of one Mohd Radzhi Salleh, he quit his party but wishes to continue to hold his post as the state executive councillor. That sounds like a self-serving man to me, or maybe ‘syiok sendiri’ kind of guy, who thought he won the seat for his own principles and values.

“Nothing can stop the man with the right mental attitude from achieving his goal; nothing on earth can help the man with the wrong mental attitude” ~ Thomas Jefferson

Then, came along this one Johorean – the same kind of man – hinting that more PKR representative may quit. Well, I never know that he is such an analyst extraordinaire like Mr Wenger Khairy, to predict such ‘lompat si katak lompat’ acts.

‘Kalau tak ada serangga, masakan katak melompat’, isn’t that so? I bet he has been ‘propagating serangga’ to bait many more ‘kataks’ but not only ‘kataks’ eat ‘serangga’, other animals like birds, pangolin, echidna, armadillo, dragonfly, fish and even plants, too, eat ‘serangga’. So, I wonder why he and his men focus so much on ‘kataks’.

DSAI admits PKR is the weak link in PR coalition. Well, we all know that PKR is very much an UMNO splinter party - full of once sidelined UMNO goons – who breathe money to stay alive. “When they get worried, the money says let’s go baby”! Ahh, what do you expect from those people who grew up in dirty money politic environment? Maybe we need to use the ‘weedkiller’ to control such ‘lalang’ from outgrowing the crops.

“A man does what he must - in spite of personal consequences, in spite of obstacles and dangers and pressures - and that is the basis of all human morality” ~ Winston Churchill

Of ‘katak’ and ‘lalang’, now they have ‘buaya? Oh no! They say BN’s tainted candidate has a second wife but she hasn’t been given her rights as his wife for the past 8 years. Isn’t this another criterion of some UMNO goons – chauvinistic womanisers? So, you took a vow to care for her in the name of God and now you denied her place as one of your wives? I feel for his second wife’s emotional pain, which is beyond words. No woman deserves to be desecrated in such humiliating manner.

Despite having “Kementerian Pembangunan Wanita, Keluarga dan Masyarakat” since January 2001, women’s rightful status and rights are still being denied. Kak Jat, what say you? Oh, by the way Kak Jat, Auntie Madeleine Albright has this for you ~ “There’s a special place in hell for women who do not help other women”.

While we women are becoming more aware of our rights, more aspired to ‘reach for the stars’, the Government is still in the state of denial to assist us women. Why so? First stop, have a look at the composition of UMNO lawmakers in the cabinet!

I wonder what would be Fatwa Council’s stand on this matter. I am looking forward to their intelligent, well-thought response because we do not wish to see this degrading trend continues. Imagine this world, with too many women abandoned by their husbands. What more if they have children. What would happen to them?

“Women are systematically degraded by receiving the trivial attentions, which men think it manly to pay to the sex, when in fact, men are insulting, supporting their own superiority” ~ Mary Wollstonecraft

The same Johorean (danggg, what an embarassment), last week, said that he wanted to see more women in senior management position in corporate world. With these type of chavunistic men walking along the Corridor of Power, how could women climb up the corporate ladder? One who speaks her minds and exercises her rights are normally being ‘struck’ from the list as they would pose such great challenge to these type of insecured men. All they need is “Yes Man” type of women. For me, it is a disgrace and irresponsible act. Would you, women out there, ditch your principle for a room with a window? I rather have a clear conscience overlooking my little cubicle, baby!

Say NO to shameless men, say NO to UMNO.

Say YES to women’s power, say YES to better future.

For a start, let’s get the best man to win!


p.s. Being a lady is an attitude, being a lousy man is a destitute. So, I think!

I Was Bugged Down But I Am Blessed

Literally. I was bugged down with common cold most days this August. I coughed up a lung or two, lost a voice, sent out growling noise that could send the house (and my office) down, used boxes of tissues (Dear Mother Nature, please forgive me), sucked too many lozenges (i got sensitive gums now i need to use Sensodyne) and had low 'libido' for blogging or simply, interacting or communicating.

Still, I managed to watch "Hachiko" at Finas last saturday with one interesting soul with a beautiful mind and braved a storm to see another blogger. My companions must be the kindest souls of all for putting up with my whopping cough and all. May God bless you all, always.

To my dearest Uncle Zorro, yes, i owe you too many hugs (and bowls of Sup Kambing) now for your kind heart and thoughts on me. Dear Uncle Zorro, i miss you terribly...

To Mr Duke The Whisperer, who never fails to have this special instinct about me, i owe you a meeting over cups of steaming coffee (or tea) and many more to come. Dear Sir, i am forever indebted to you...

To Mr Oscar the Grouch, i shed tears for your concerns about me. Thank you for 'missing me sorely'...

To Bro PT CA, i am still saddened that now we can't access blogspot. And bro, i will do some nice 'write-up' to the Top Gun - a little reminder of my 2-cent i shared last 2 fridays. This is the time to be proactive and vocal but i sincerely hope i wasn't being labelled as one 'attention-seeker'. Let's hope for the best, ok?

p.s. I was sick (got internet but no energy to blog), i was all over the place as my sis and nephews were down with flu (Hariz, one of little angels was hospitalised for almost a week) (no internet but had too much to write). What a 'beautiful' life...

Salam Ramadhan

Salam Ramadhan to all my muslim brethrens

The beauty of Ramadhan lies in our efforts to get closer to Allah. Starting with 'niat' for fasting, we would continue to state our intention in every thing we do - we do this in the name of Allah, God Almighty. With God's willing, when we submit our ourselves - through our heart, mind and soul - rest assured, we would do it the best we can, with all humility that we seek God's guidance to walk through this treacherous world. Instead of merely an activity, we do everything with full responsibility, that serves a purpose that brings goodness to mankinds.

The beauty of Ramadhan lies in our rigorous efforts to recite His miraculous Guide - Al-Quran - as "this is month in which it was sent down as a guide to mankinds and also clear signs for guidance between right and wrong" (Surah Al-Baqarah, Verse 185). I always believe that by reciting Al-Quran, our heart is soothed, our mind is clear and our soul is nourished.

Once, Umar Al-Khattab was on his way to kill our Prophet Muhammad (PBUH), when someone told him that his sister has embraced Islam. He detoured and went to confront his sister, who was reciting the first six verses from Surah Ta-ha. These simple, beautiful verses overtook his anger, his pure madness to kill another human being. On that very day, he went to see Prophet Muhammad (PBUH) - he embraced Islam in front of the Prophet, instead of killing him.

That's the beauty of Ramadhan and the gift it has given us - Al-Quran.

Encik Art Harun's message to me epitomises Ramadhan's spirit at its best: -

"May all of us find humility, peace and above all the human spirits which make all of us Khalifah on this earth of His this Ramadan. We shout. We scream. And most of the time in our pursuit of our desires, we forget that those mean nothing in His eyes unless we are willing to submit to His ways, and those are the true ways. May we find The ways this Ramadan. Amin".

Yes, may we all find The Ways this Ramadhan. Amin.

From One Johorean To Another

Dear Tan Sri,

I wonder if you have pets at home because "until one has loved an animal, a part of one's soul remains unawakened".

I want to know if you have a good heart because "great thoughts come from the (good) heart".

I wish to seek your answer if you are humane enough because "one cannot be just if one is not humane".

Lastly, I'd like to hear you say that you are a man because "to be a man is, precisely, to be responsible".

Yours truly

~ Me ~

Orang Kampung Makam

Kota Tinggi

Kota Tinggi Waterfall

Skimpy Deep Beauty

I have these mixed feelings after reading this piece of new I found in TheStarOnline.

Do you think good-looking people stand better chances to win people's heart? Is it true that handsome men make good husbands and leaders? Could we translate beauty to how well people perform?

A few weeks earlier, our new top man paid his maiden visit to all floors in our office. My colleagues commented that his (good) looks make them feel proud to call him our CEO. Wow! I never thought good looks could have such a great impression on how well you would perform as the Top Gun. I thought we should be looking at his body language and how he 'walks his talks' - a reflection of his management style. I believe great leader is judged from how he treats his people - all of them, regardless of of their positions in the organisation. So far, his serious (pleasant) looks, his attempts at 'open-door policy' and his interesting views on several matters tell me he could bring back our organisation to its glory days - of course, with our assistance and feedback along the way.

"No one can lie, no one can hide anything, when he looks directly into someone's eyes" ~ paulo Coelho

Today, TheStarOnline reported that some women think BN's 'tainted' candidate in Permatang Pasir By-Election is the best looking candidate so far - 'boleh jadi pelakon'.

Wow! This piece of news looks more like a collateral damage control to this 'pelakon' as he told the press on Wednesday that 'it is hard for him to always wear the broad smile' and that he 'apologies to the voters if they perceived him as arrogant'. Duhhhhhh!

"Don't go for look, it can be quite deceiving. Dont' go for wealth, even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile because only a smile makes a dark day seems bright"

Tell me people - have you ever heard of people complaining about smiling before, even if you don't know these benefits of smiling? Well, one would make such fuss if one does not have any interest in smiling to others in the first place. In his case, you should know why he's under a lot of stress since the by-election's nomination day on Monday, which made Ku Li wonders if 'he is the best we (UMNO people) can (make) do'.

Tell me people - do we need this kind of 'pelakon' to be our kind of ADUN?

"To be persuasive, we must be believable. To be believable, we must be credible. To be credible, we must be truthful" ~ Edward R. Murrow

Please, voters of Permatang Pasir, even if they continue to say that you would be their 'Anak Emas' if you delivered them the victory next week, do you think an ADUN who makes fuss about smiling, who is not capable of telling the truth, would speak for you and thus, deliver the goodies you deserve all these while, no matter if BN or PR won this by-election?

The most unfortunate man is the one that betrays himself. So, please, we wouldn't wish to see you being cruel to yourself and your future generations.

'Adil itu meletakkan sesuatu pada tempatnya'. So, please be 'adil' to yourself and your future generations.

p.s. Oh, i almost threw up my dinner when one lady minister commented on TV that she was shocked to see how 'mundur' Permatang pasir is - Oh Am Jee (Hi Art, can i use this here? :). Heck, this makcik is really out of touch or 'pura-pura tak tahu' about double standard treatment to opposition by the you-know-what.

p.s.s. Shish! Now i know why a brand new, filthy-rich opposition leader in one PR-led state would go that far (botox and all) to remain 'appealing' to his voters.

p.s.s.s. I know I am a difficult person. I would be so disgusted if one makes such remark that i am capable of getting things done because of how people perceive me - physically, instead of my capabilities - or if the level of treatment to another person - strangers or no - is based on how good-looking you are. Gosh! What a HUGE turn-off for me!