Sunday, February 1, 2009

Angel 2


I was told by Chu yesterday that Chik Aya is in terminal stage of cancer. All we could do now is to provide her with all available chance for her to fight this and make sure she is well taken care of. We hope that she know how much we love her.

How does it fell like that your days in this world are numbered? How would you spend them? i told my mom that i'd be happy to know that i have a limited lifespan that i could repent, seek forgiveness from Allah and people around me, make necessary plans so they will be well take care of once i'm gone. I also want to make sure i've fulfilled my purpose sent into this world.

My Tok passed away due to auto-accident - 100 metres away from his house of 60 years and was in his best health. A few months before, he told me that he's getting bored living this long for all his generation has gone to the Afterworld - he's lonely. His books were his love since my grandma passed away 45 years ago but like all human beings, connection with another human being is vital. My Tok is 'cerewet' and even some of his children who live near his house couldn't get along really well with him. Sadly, those whom he can really talk to - me, my mom and Chu - live outside Kota Tinggi. It really upset me that people sometimes are too consumed with their angers over petty matters that they rather burn the bridge into someone's heart. When I miss my Tok, i'd read his books and notes in Jawi. I can still smell him every time i do that.

My Tok came into Chu's dreams last few weeks. Chu thought that she will die - well, that's what most people believe when someone from the Afterworld pays you a visit in your dreams. I guess he was trying to tell Chu about Chik Aya.

2 comments:

WanHidayat said...

Salam Kak...

...pause...this life is equitable to everyone...life promises past and present because it is it's soul. Hoping Chik Aya interprets what she is facing now as a gift from The Almighty...
If her life now is numbered, she always has hopes...Let's pray for her strength....

Fi-sha said...

Dear Hidayat, thanks for the words of encouragement. One may not open her mouth to express her feelings yet her love permeates every soul she touch. We'll be strong for her. I believe Allah bestow upon us life path or life script we have to go thru, for good reasons we need to search for. Thanks adik...